Deviant since Dec 4, 2012 | Premium Member until Nov 17, 2014
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Yeah, I give out s to people. Mainly cos I don't like feeling as shit as I do, and don't want anyone else to feel like this either. And I seem to have lost my ability to talk to people anyway, so smileys seem to be the best way to communicate...
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PLEASE DO NOT CONTINUE TO READ THIS JOURNAL IF YOUR FIND THE ISSUE TRIGGERING. I WILL BE GOING INTO SOME DETAIL AROUND THE SUBJECT AND METHODS, AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE GIVING ANYONE IDEAS. Having said that, I feel that it is also important to educate people. So I've put up my warnings; please pay attention to them.
I wrote a song based around the subject last year, when I was just starting to come to terms with a suicide attempt that I went through. Please do listen while you continue through the rest of the journal, it means a lot to me:
I want to write this journal from a personal angle, about my experiences with self-harm, rather than just a generic article. I also wanted to feature some of the art work that I feel really related to the subject. They get more triggering as you go down, so if it gets too much, then please stop. None of the images show actually self-harm wounds, but the last two do show simulated (artistic) injuries.
So what is self-injury? Deliberately harming one-self The most well known forms are cutting or burning Not all forms leave a mark
I first started cutting when I was nine years old, triggered by my difficult family situation and bullying. However, I began to self-harm in different forms (mainly biting, head-banging and hitting/kicking things) from a much earlier age.
Forms of S/H: Cutting, scratching, scraping Burning, branding, deliberate sunburn Head-butting, punching, kicking other things Hitting yourself Self neglect (not eating/eating too much, not washing, not drinking) Smoking, taking drugs, abusing alcohol, over-dosing Speeding, starting fights Behaving in any manner which is deliberately self damaging
Self-harm can very easily become an addiction, and once it has hit that stage, it is extremely difficult to stop.
Some reasons for self-harm: Choosing to inflict pain on yourself rather than on someone else Breaking the emotional and/or physical numbness Distracting from physical/emotional pain Punishing yourself/feeling like you deserve it Releasing tension/stress/emotions Bringing yourself back from certain mental states (panic attacks, dissociation etc) Preventing yourself from acting in a far more dangerous/damaging manner Regaining a sense of control
Self-harm is a coping mechanism. It is not necessarily a healthy coping mechanism, but it can also stop things spiralling out of control (although on occasions, self-harm itself may be what is spiraling out of control). It can speak the words that we cannot physically say, act as a way to bring us back to reality, and even prevent the completion of an act of suicide.
Common myths: People who self-harm are just attention seeking FALSE. In fact, most of the people who do engage in self-harm are ashamed of what they do. They wear clothes that hide the marks, avoid getting changed in front of people. They are often intensely afraid that someone will discover their secret, and will go at great lengths to prevent that from happening. Self-harming is a selfish thing to do FALSE. A lot of the time, people would rather harm themselves than hurt a friend or member of family. I have definitely taken out my anger at my parents/siblings on myself, to avoid doing them any damage. For me, self-harm is often a way to protect other people from my mental demons. Everyone who self-harms is suicidal FALSE. People who are suicidal, are suicidal. People who self-harm, self-harm. Some people who engage in self-harm do feel suicidal, but it does not mean that all acts of injury are because you want to die. Self-harming is a sign that you do not have a better coping mechanism for whatever it is that you are going through at the time. It can be a sign that you are suffering from a mental illness, but even that is not always the case. People who self-harm are dangerous FALSE. As I have said before, self-harm is often used to protect those around us. Hurting another person is the last thing that they want; accidentally or deliberate. The only danger I can think of, personally, is that of a blood-transmitted infection if things are not cleaned up properly or carefully enough after an incident of self-harm. Note: These points are true for all the cases that I know of. There will be, of course, outliers who do not fit these descriptions.
Advice for someone who self-harms: Seek help Make sure that all implements used are clean Clean, cover and care for wounds properly Get yourself a good first-aid kit, stock it up, and go on a first-aid course if possible; there is plenty of advice on the internet if you cannot make it to a course Seek medical attention for any serious wounds, call an ambulance if you hit an artery, major vein, or cannot stop the bleeding If a wound is red/raised/hot with a red area around it, seek medical help immediately. It probably means that you have an infection and will need a course of antibiotics
Help/support for self-harmers: Talk to a trusted friend or family member See a counsellor; you do not need to be mentally ill to do so, anyone should be able to find and benefit from a counsellor Talk to and ask advice from a doctor that you trust Individual or group therapy can help you work through things See a psychiatrist; you may have a mental illness/disorder that they can treat, and/or they might be able to offer or suggest other support There may be a local support group that you can go to Online networks and support groups can also help
Supporting someone you know who self-harms: Remember that someone who self-harms is a human being, just like you; however scary it may seem Listen to what they are saying; sometimes just feeling that you have been heard can help Remember that it is okay to not know what to say, and it’s okay to feel awkward/upsett etc; it is not an easy subject to talk about, and even the experts don’t understand everything Don't try and force the issue; they may not be ready to open up just yet; it takes time to build up the trust and confidence to confide in someone Gently encourage or suggest for them to seek help, and accept if they don't feel up to it Do not tell them that they have to stop; they will need to develop a more healthy coping mechanism to replace the self-harm, before they are ready to give it up PLEASE do not take their sharps/etc away from them unless they ask you to, or you are advised by a professional; it makes them feel persecuted, often breaks their trust in you, and things can spin out of control very quickly if you force someone to desperation Remember that YOU matter too; only offer as much or as little support as you are comfortable with; you are no use to anyone if you burn out (it's miserable and can put you in the same place as the person who you are trying to help) Seek help yourself if you need it; everyone needs to offload and be heard at some point; talking to a counsellor/etc may not only help you, but also the person who you are trying to help
Please do comment on this journal with any questions that you have, whether they be on the subject in general, or on my personal experience. I will try and respond to them in a follow-up journal if and when I am well enough.